Thomas

Thomas is going to be the death of me.  I'm tired of his attitude and his lack of taking responsibility for himself.  It's everybody else's fault but his.  This time I made him pick between spending the night at his friend's or coming home and going to the beach.  How hard can that possibly be? Apparently very hard.  He is mad at me because I wouldn't let him do both. Sigh. Really?
To top it all off my husband was going to go ahead and take him down there after church.  He didn't and I'm still the bad guy.  I'm always the bad guy. I'm tired of being the bad guy. I'm just plain tired and sick of it.  I really am ready for Thomas to buckle down, graduate in 3 years and go out on his own, like he wants to.  Maybe one day he'd come home and say mom you were right, I had it good.

This is one of those days I'm just simply done. Finished. I want out.

Day 19

So, I think I have also learned that I don't always have something to say everyday.  I think my new goal will be to at least post sometimes.
Friday night I volunteered at the Kari Jobe concert at our church.  I got door monitor in the back where the band kept coming in and out.  It was fun.  I like to serve, and I like to serve quietly.

Day 18

So I've totally derailed on this 30 day blog. Darn. Let's see if I can at least get 30 days soon.

I have said I love my job, but this is the 1st year I've worked full time.  Also, I have more responsibilities.   These last few days have been interesting.  We have 19 kids this year.  It makes for an interesting experience! My brain feels like it's running ninety to nothing and that really is a good thing, but it also makes me tired.

Anyway, Monday was crazy and I didn't pay attention to the little things.  Tuesday morning I really realized that one of my favorite kids is on the bus when the drop off our kids.  She is awesome!  Not perfect, but none of us are.  She realized that I was outside the bus and she started waving at me, and I could see her saying my name.  I love the way she says my name.  I am blessed that most every morning I will get to see her wave at me and be delighted to see me.  I will be waving back and delighted to see her and it will makes my entire year!   God in his great knowledge provided delight in a  small unexpected place.

Day 17

When I typed Day 16 I realized there was a good post as an extra.

The hospital where Ryleigh died had an awesome Child Life Dept.  Every spring break they do a grief camp.  They had it 3 months after Ryleigh died and we reluctantly let them go.  I confess to nearly having a panic attack on the way.  Really I did, I just didn't hyper ventilate, which is usually par for the course for me.

So, the boys go and for days I have no idea if they had fun.  We go and pick them up and they met a young couple Ben and Kristina.  Ben and Kristina were awesome.  They were amazing with the boys, especially Thomas.  Kristina would sneak snacks for him and they would sit and talk about everything. Just what he needed at that time.  We have stayed friends with them and I consider both of them a HUGE reason the boys did ok. Have I said enough yet that they ROCKED? They did.  They still go to camps in the summer and I can't begin to imagine the blessings they have given other kids. I love those two!

Two years ago they got married, and truth be told we would've crashed if we'd not been invited.  I had not quilted much outside of Ryleigh's.  My friend Meg assured me I could do a square block quilt in a short amount of time.  I got it done and to the longarm quilter and back just in time.  I put a quilt label on it, using Ryleigh's clothes as a label.

I adored giving it to them.  I needed to give them an amazing gift for thanks.  They will always hold a spot in my heart, as a couple who gave so much to my sons, and really us too.

Day 16

So this is my second quilt and first attempt at a picture.  Really this is my 3rd quilt. I did a quilt for a couple getting married, a baby quilt and this one.  Gary picked out all the fabric and the pattern.  I hand stitched the entire top together.  My friend Joyce put the back 3 pieces together for me, quilted all three layers and put the binding one.  Once I got it back my friend Lynn and I finished off the binding.  It takes me a bit of time, because most times I quilt while watching Days of Our Lives.  I will be working full time this year, so I'll have to find another time to quilt.

Next on my list is to finish a quilt top I've been working on for awhile and put another baby quilt together.  Then I have to decide which quilt to start next.....  I also want to fix Ry' s quilt.  I have a couple of sides where the back isn't wide enough.  It will be harder to fix than I like.

I bought a quilt top at an auction last night. One day I will send it to Joyce to quilt, after putting on a bigger border.

Day 15

I love to read. I love to read lots of different things, but mostly I love to read things that don't make me have to work at it.
I love to read fast and skip pages but still get a story out of it.  Light mysteries work the best.

I have 2 books that will take some time to read. One called The Coffee Trader, which I think I will end up liking.  Another called Icy Sparks, about a girl who has Tourettes.  It will be good too, but they both require reading each page and really paying attention.

So I put them aside.  I have a few days left before my routine starts up full time, so I decided to do a last run of junk reading.  Romances and mysteries to finish out my summer. Awesome! I love a good vampire story :-)

Day 14

I'm having Olympic withdrawals.

I am catching up on shows that I haven't watched in awhile.

 I also got most of my quilt projects cut out, some blocks put together, a baby quilt top finished, and a whole bunch of reading done.  I read totally no brainers, mostly.  Which was really nice.  I am hoping to finish Gary's quilt binding this week.