11 years today

11 years ago late at night I got a phone call.  Actually Gary answered the phone and then he had to relay it's message. My 20 year old brother had been shot and life flighted.  We arrived at the hospital to be escorted to THAT room.

 My thoughts on that room- simply run from it. It won't change anything- your loved one will be gone, but you will not have had to set your feet in THAT room. Can you tell I have issues with the small room they take you to, to break the news that your loved one didn't make it?  I liked the morgue better. At least there I could touch Aaron and cry on him.

I feel this year as been a turning point for me.  I'm still sad and I still miss him, but I feel a bit more stable about it all.  I truly would love to have him still with us.  I miss his presence in my life, but I know that he is having great fun in heaven with all our other family.  One day I will be there with him.  That will be a joyous day.