Strawberries

Gary and I went and picked strawberries today. The strange thing was that Thomas wasn't there. Really I thought about Ryleigh not being there, but that's normal :) Thomas has spent his whole day taking math TAKS (state test). They give them the entire day to do the test. Total waste of a day if you ask me. Total waste of the last few weeks. They've spent all this time cramming for a test that they now have 7 hrs. to take. Along, with all kinds of rules about what you can and cannot bring to school. Oh, and the cafeteria doesn't provide hot lunch on the days they test. Seriously? you can't feed kids a hot lunch, but you can take away all their electives because their grades are bad and you are worried about them failing your precious test? Can you tell I don't like the TAKS test :)

Anyway, back to the important stuff- strawberries.! We had a fun time picking them and I have now eaten way more than I should've but they are so good. Poor Thomas, stuck inside on this most beautiful day!

Here's a hilarious story for everyone. I had a workshop on signing last night. More specifically on facial expression. I ended up demonstrating a sentence about my snake being cute, soft and warm.

Now the whole thing was it took 2 people. One did the facial expression (me) and another did the signs (Warren). If any of you have watched Who's Line Is It Anyway? you have seen the skit where one person is the hands and the other one talks. Well, that's how we were supposed to do.

Ok- are you even getting a picture in your head yet? If I was the facial expression- I was in front. Yes, that's right Warren was the hands behind me.

Yes, I was touched where no woman wants to touched in public, by a strange man. My face must have showed the violation, because the entire room burst out laughing. Even I was laughing. I think back on it this morning and I wonder if the teacher didn't really realize what happened. My teacher sitting in the class did and they talked about it for at least 15 mins. after class.

So yes, I was touched on my breast in a room full of people last night. Yes, I took it graciously. No, I'm not scarred for life, nor was I mad at Warren. It really was an accident. I still can't believe I ended up being the topic of conversation afterwards though. I'm ok to be a wallflower, but that was not to be the case last night :)

I wonder if I should only post nice thing on here?

I had a rough Thursday night. All of the sudden I was just overwhelmed and done. I went to Ladies Night Out at our church and I came home to nothing being done. NOTHING! All three of them sat on their butts all night, while making sure to not wash out their dishes, or put the laundry in the dryer. Now after saying that, I mean that is what pushed me over the edge, I loaded the dryer, washed out the dishes and laid down. Never saying a word to them about it, because in the end it was my issue.

I haven't felt that sense of panic in awhile. It lasted for 2 days, and by Sat. I was much better.

Aaron will have been gone 12 yrs. next Thurs. and I think that was part of it. I really hate housework, and here lately I seem to be doing most of it. I really hate that. We are cramming a whole bunch of units in a short amount of time in college. While I can do it, doesn't mean I can handle it well.

Sat. I got to go scrapbook all day. It was nice to do that. I got some projects done, some pages done and attached. WooHoo! Also, I cleaned out the room while I was packing up my stuff.

I am slowly working on both quilts. I am also reading with the WEM group again. I confess it doesn't work well for me. I like to read things on my own time apparently.

Ok- that test last night was hard. The lesson in that was I didn't study enough, so I am going back to my study everyday routine. I am now moving on to the next thing due for that class- signing a children's book. I have picked Dandelion by Don Freeman. Hopefully today I will have it glossed and will have videotaped a 1st run just to see how long it will be.

I really can't wait to move on to a school where the students really truly want to learn and be challenged. I haven't really found that where I am now, except for my friend Tina. Sad really.

Yesterday

My weekends in April are turning out to be busy, or at least one big thing going on. This weekend was a workshop and a Deaf comedian performance. Because I had that going on it got me a weekend all by myself. Gary and the boys ended up going to his dad's house for the weekend. It was so nice to have some peace and quiet for a day. Yesterday I spent the day with my friend Tina at a workshop on classifiers and then we went back for a performance by Crom Saunders who is Deaf. It was hilarious and I was reminded why I love sign language. It was such a good day and I learned alot and loved spending some time with Tina. I cam home with my brain overloaded with ASL. All I have done today is church and being lazy. Nice weekend.

Good Friday

I can't believe it's April already. I'm trying to figure out where the first 3 months of March went.....

April is a hard month for me. Aaron died almost 12 years ago on the 29th of April, and no matter how hard I try my brain knows it's coming. I almost feel like this might be the week I lose it. After all these years I still miss him. The sadness is not quite all consuming, but at some moment this month it will be. The rest of my siblings and I will get together and I still feel one is missing. I look at them all and I expect him to be standing there......

We had a great sermon last week about Jesus being nailed on the cross, and most times I take it as it is and don't get too wrapped up in that, but last Sunday was different. Randy was so passionate about it all that I got so caught up and just wanted to lay on the floor and sob. God so moved in me at that moment. I can't wait for tonight and Sunday. I bad thing about tonight is that Gary's dad and stepmom will be accompanying us to church. I am less likely to be moved when they are there. Why you ask? Because 9 times out of 10 if I cry anywhere near anyone who knows me they automatically assume I'm crying over Ryleigh. Newsflash, it's not all about her. Most times it's simply words that touch my heart.

On a much lighter note :) I have been quilting this awesome quilt for some dear friends who are getting married in July. I think I will have it done, but I will have to tie it off versus quilt it. They were both so beneficial to Thomas (mostly) and to Gary at grief camp less than 4 months after Ry died. I have been forever blessed by them, and thought this would be a great way to show it, and I love doing it :) I have 2 rows out of 6 put together and almost all the fabric picked out. I will hopefully post pics when I'm done and the wedding is over.

Off to get out of my pj's and quilt.